I need a charger

or better yet a defibrillator. I need to restart my system. I need a break. I can't do this anymore and I can't believe that school is starting soon. I didn't do anything this holiday. All I did was work. work. work. Ugh I hate my life. I'm so not motivated to do anything. Mom went to the mosque today for Ashura...which used to be an event I would look forward to, but not anymore. I didn't go with them. She was very disappointed. But oh well, I have alot on my plate at the moment. I can't digest everything at once and have a social life (not that this is possible, given my work conditions).


Yesterday, I almost had an asthma attack, I felt energy-less (don't know if thats a word). I literally couldn't even talk. And it was boxing day...I was so tired all day. and to be honest, I'm still tired and not in a blogging mood but I thought its been a while and I need to take some of this stuff off of my chest...


I'm seriously considering creating a sub-blog, I want it to be private though. There are so many things I want to talk about but I just don't feel very comfortable expressing them here. Something like a diary. Something private.

Another project I'm thinking of launching is the Corners of my Life project. What this project is about is basically talking/posting different pictures of corners/places around UTSC, Toronto, my house, friends etc...I thought it would be neat since I'm leaving Toronto in the summer. and I may not come back again *tears*. But thats not gonna be a whole new blog, just a bunch of posts.


Anyhow, now I wanna talk about shopping. Yesterday was boxing day and I didn't go shopping :(
but I've been doing a lot of online shopping. Oh yeah, I got my boots from http://www.gojane.com/ and I am abseloutely in love with them! They are so comfortable and cute! I put another order through and will post up pictures as soon as I receive it.



Today however, I was on A&F's website and found this really cute classic shirt. It is so simple and elegent :) I think I'm gonna get it...I just don't have time to go shopping and I don't wanna order it on their webstie because I have to try it in their store first.

So yeah, as you can tell from the above, my thoughts are pretty much scattered all over the place but thats because its 4:04AM and I am soooo tired.
I'm planning to bake something tomorrow :)

Till next time,

www.GoJane.com and I hate Forever21

Hello world :)

Yesterday I was so pissed off! I went on Forever21's website to order this really gorgeous dress that I found. It was only $7.99! So I put the dress in the cart (after having signed into my F21 account of course) and then I kept shopping. I thought it wouldn't be worth it if I only bought one thing and paid $10 for shipping. So I was looking around to find other things that would match with the dress...Like I grabbed a pair of leggings, a pendant necklace and my sister found a fancy mini skirt that she wanted to wear to her friend's all-girls Christmas party. So anyhow, so we ended up with about 5 or 6 item, total came up to $44.00 and we're like yeah whatever. So I click on "continue to checkout" and it says to me "Sorry one of your items is out of stock, please remove item to proceed". I flipped. It turned out that they ran out while I was shopping and they just decided to take stuff out of people's carts. What the heck were they thinking? Just because I took my time to look for accessories, it doesn't mean that I wasn't serious. And the funny thing is, I did it all in one sitting. It's not like I logged out, navigated away from the browser and then came back to find it gone, no I was there, on their website, the whole time. It was so frustrating. I spent more than an hour trying to match an outfit :( I hate Forever21 now. I wrote them an e-mail but they haven't responded yet. It was so frustrating! So I emptied my cart right away and closed my window. I was so mad :(

But to ease off this frustration (lol) I went on GoJane and I found my size in these boots that I've been wanting for a month now! THEY ARE GORGEOUS! I don't expect them to last for long. I tried them on at Dukati and they were pretty comfortable but just not winter material. I was thinking of wearing it inside. OMG I love them. Here's how they look:

As you can see, they are prtty short which is perfect. I wasn't looking for anything hookerish material. I hate long boots, especially if you have long legs. It just looks wrong.

So they had them in blue, mustard, and black but as mentioned in my pervious blog, grey is the colour of the season!!! I have never shopped from GoJane before but I thoguht I would give it a try.

On a negative note, I have an exam tomorrow and I have only finished 5 chapters out of the 16 chapters assigned. I am silently freaking out lol. I hate this :( And I'm supposed to meet up with someone to go over the notes (which I don't even have yet). I don't know
ugh
Miracles!

Till next time,

Steve Madden Shoes

This really shouldn't be the title of this blog because I will be talking about other things as well...but I guess the steve madden flats are the highlight of it lol! OMG, I can't wait to get them but at the same I'm a little worried about the shipping. They said it would only take 5-7 days and its been 8 days already :( I know that it's legit because I ordered it off the Steve Madden website. I'm usually very traditional when it comes to buying shoes, either black or brown. probably because it's easy to match everything with these colours and also because my mother is not very adventerous and hates adventerous people *sight* I remember once asking her if I could buy a green pair of flats and she went ballistic on me. She thinks it's a total waste of money. But black is boring, especially when you have 4 black flats. Anyhow, so this time I decided to go blue!!!! Royal blue, Michael Kors blue! I love the colour. I don't have anything to match with it yet, but I guess I can wear it with pretty much any dark-colured top. I need a purse to go with it for sure, but I'm gonna hold that urge for now, I need to pay my tuition first.

On a different note, my mother isnt talking to me...and my dad is kind of tagging along with her. I think I'm slowly turning into this mad, miserable night owl :( It's true. This shift is slowly murdering my social life. All I do is sleep and wake up, go to work, come home sleep, wake up and go to work. I shouldn't have signed up for extra shifts, it's too much :(

I want to apologize to my mom. I want to tell her that I'm trying everything I could in order to be "normal" but it's just not working! I can't be normal if I have to stay up all night at work. I have got to sleep when I come home, and becuase it's VERY extremely difficult to fall asleep during the day when everyone is talking, little sisters playing, phone ringing every 5 mings, I end up spending the entire day trying to fall asleep.

Then there's the whole Manitoba thing. I have no idea why things are happening so fast or even how. My life has always been static for the most part, things don't move that fast....It usually takes my parents a VERY LONG time to come to a final decision. But this time things happened fast. I dont know how I should feel about it. I don't want to move anymore :( I spent my whole life traveling and I've had it now. I never got to form real friendships...always on the go. And now that things have finally settled and I've started to make friends etc., my parents want to move again. Thing is, I'm not a school girl anymore. I'm in univeristy and moving is not easy for a U student. I don't know if med school is possible and I don't want to do my masters there...I'm conrfused and I wish my mother would be there for me, instead of acting chidish as usual.

I understand that the whole family is stressed but this is very important for me and I obviously can't say that I want to stay here alone. It just won't happen. I'm confused.

Here is how the shoes should look like.

Till next time