I finally got my phone yesterday! and it is HOT! well I think it is lol my mom thinks its big, huge and ugly. it's white and it flips. I'll try to to upload a picture of it. But yeah I downloaded a new ringtone, elissa's ayami beek! I love that song.
I'm at work. I don't feel tired today at all, I had 2 hours of sleep before coming...I really want to go shopping tomorrow. I dont know if I can do it though. The mall closes at 5pm and by the time I get home, rest and eat its probably 3pm or something. I don't think its worth it. But I don't know when I can go! I still have to work on the psychology assignement, its due on Thursday and Zahra wants me to go shopping with her for trip. I'm gonna be super busy and plus mom is leaving on Tuesday...ugh! I'm seriously thinking of hiring a housekeeper!
Till next time...
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
Almost there but running out of time.
Two more chapters to go. ugh! I am getting sick of BM! I was going to blog today in the morning but I felt discouraged by the fact that I only got 2 chapters done yesterday. I honestly tried. But I was exhusted by the time I finished those two chapters and then I met up with someone for lunch etc...point is by the time it was 5pm I wasn't in the mood of doing doing anymore studying.
Still haven't decided what I want to do my project on. Lots of options but I still don't have a plan. I want to get those 2 chapters done before I start reviewing which will only happen when I go home as I need to read things outloud and think of examples that apply to the theories.
Sounds like a plan to me but I'm almost certain that I won't be able to follow it. I should be optimistic. Oh well. I can't wait to finish my exam so I can go shopping. I need to update my closet.
Shams lectures me about the way I dress up almost everyday lol. She's kinda right. I don't pay much attention to my appearance these days. I'm just behind in school and trying to catch up. I have abs. no time to 'beautify myself' as she puts it. Kinda sad but what do I do? and plus hoodies and jeans and sneakers are very practical. Not dressy but practical. I actually tend to get more done when I'm dressed up comfortably and for me thats when I wear practical, simple things. Sometimes even wearing a 'fancy scarf' can bother me. Can't believe how picky and sensitive I can be.
Anyhow, I better get back to chapter 11!
Till next time.
Still haven't decided what I want to do my project on. Lots of options but I still don't have a plan. I want to get those 2 chapters done before I start reviewing which will only happen when I go home as I need to read things outloud and think of examples that apply to the theories.
Sounds like a plan to me but I'm almost certain that I won't be able to follow it. I should be optimistic. Oh well. I can't wait to finish my exam so I can go shopping. I need to update my closet.
Shams lectures me about the way I dress up almost everyday lol. She's kinda right. I don't pay much attention to my appearance these days. I'm just behind in school and trying to catch up. I have abs. no time to 'beautify myself' as she puts it. Kinda sad but what do I do? and plus hoodies and jeans and sneakers are very practical. Not dressy but practical. I actually tend to get more done when I'm dressed up comfortably and for me thats when I wear practical, simple things. Sometimes even wearing a 'fancy scarf' can bother me. Can't believe how picky and sensitive I can be.
Anyhow, I better get back to chapter 11!
Till next time.
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
School
Just got here! I have to cover at least 4 chapters today, ughh! And I have to meet up with someone and discuss the essay and I'm tired. I don't know why, I slept well, had breakfast. I don't know. I just need to motivate myself somehow. I thought I would blog or plan how I'm going to approach those 4 chapters before I get started but I don't know how to divide up my time. There's 4 chapters and I don't even know when the girl wants us to meet up. So it's all up in the air today and I have a feeling that I won't get much done. But oh well, I'll try my best.
I have to get a hold of the movie mississippi burning as soon as possible so I can start analyzing it. I don't really like the fact that our analysis will be concerned with overt racism. It's really straightforward. I find modern racism more interesting. But that's just my opinion and I'm working with another girl and her opinion counts as well of course. So we'll see what we decide on today.
I will probably do some more research before I go back to studying for the exam. I need to be prepared.
Till next time
I have to get a hold of the movie mississippi burning as soon as possible so I can start analyzing it. I don't really like the fact that our analysis will be concerned with overt racism. It's really straightforward. I find modern racism more interesting. But that's just my opinion and I'm working with another girl and her opinion counts as well of course. So we'll see what we decide on today.
I will probably do some more research before I go back to studying for the exam. I need to be prepared.
Till next time
Monday, March 9, 2009
Big loss...
Couldn't get anything done yesterday. My uncle (mother's gaurdian) passed away on Sunday, 03/8/09. She was very hurt. I had just come back from work when I heard the news...It was sad. He died of bone marrow cancer or something like that, his body won't generate RBC. But oh well, he's in a better place now and that's for sure. But yea we were at Anna's house last night, stayed there until 11:30PM so by the time we got home I had no energy to do anything. I crashed into my bed and woke up in the morning to hear my mother cry and moarn. He raised her. I don't blame her. I wish I could be there for her but I have an exam on Thursday. I'm at school right now...I hope I can get something done today, if I don't then I'm majorly screwed up! I literally have to cram 4 chapters/day. Kinda impossible but that's the plan, the 'urealistic plan'. Oh well, I'm gonna get started in 10 mins, which means that I need to get off the computer right now lol.
Funny I shouldn't be laughing or listening to music (which I am right now, Im listening to Kelly's Beautiful Disaster. I love that song!)
Anyhow, I'll try to blog again tonight
Till next time
Funny I shouldn't be laughing or listening to music (which I am right now, Im listening to Kelly's Beautiful Disaster. I love that song!)
Anyhow, I'll try to blog again tonight
Till next time
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Motivation
I need to get up and go to school...I know it's saturday but I can't seem to get anything done at home. My laptop is such a distraction, my mind is so occupied and my bed is so seductive! But I have work tonight! I don't know I don't know. I'm soooo lazy today and for some reason I feel confused. I don't know why...Just very confused. Maybe I'll go for a walk...ugh I need fire in my butt to get me started. I'm not motivated at all! Where are you Vanessa??
I called Bell yesterday, had an argument with them about my LG phone. Its been giving me a hard time...the battery got chipped off and now it comes off very easily, it doesn't work anymore. They're going to ship a new phone to me, Samsung m530 I think. I seen pictures of it but I really don't know if I'm gonna like it, and I don't trust Bell Mobility. They renewed my contract for 2 more years. But oh well, it's all good.
I called Bell yesterday, had an argument with them about my LG phone. Its been giving me a hard time...the battery got chipped off and now it comes off very easily, it doesn't work anymore. They're going to ship a new phone to me, Samsung m530 I think. I seen pictures of it but I really don't know if I'm gonna like it, and I don't trust Bell Mobility. They renewed my contract for 2 more years. But oh well, it's all good.
I NEED MOTIVATION
Thursday, March 5, 2009
"Die Jew, get the hell off campus"
In an article about hooliganism in Canadian universities, Gil Troy, a Zionists Jewish professor at McGill University, addresses the incident that took place recently at York University. According to the article and many other articles online, 20 Jewish students at York were held hostage in Hillel while pro-Gaza protesters shouted "Die b*tch, go back to Israel" and "Die Jew, get the hell off campus".
I personally wasn't there to witness what happened and none of the youtube videos that I watched show such racists remarks but nonetheless I am not surprised. I am not surprised because prejudice is powerful. While its nothing new and almost everyone nowadays is aware of the conflict between Jews and Arabs, this time the case is different and quite interesting for a Psychology student. This time the remakrs are very overt, direct, and describe what psychologists call "old-fashion racism". Fifty years ago, such negative remarks might have been somewhat tolerated but now, in 2009, these things shouldn't be said and if they are, something serious must be done about them. And by saying that I'm not supporting Zionism. I'm trying to stay as objective as possible. Just looking at the issue as an outsider.
Makes me wonder.
What is it that's motivating these young people? How's this hate fueled? Where's this energy coming from? Who's behind all of this 'brainwashing'? I don't know who the pro-Gaza protesters were but I'm assuming that they were Arabs, Palestinians or Muslims in general. Whoever they are, they must deeply despise Jews. Which makes me wonder...Why??? Why would anyone be willing to put their academic future in jeopardy just to piss off some Jewish students? It really makes me wonder.
Things like this incident make me think that religion promotes prejudice. I'm not trying to blame this on Islam, as any religon put in the hands of the wrong people can turn into a weapon or as the saying goes, "its the artist, not the paint". But I can't deny that religion somewhat forces its adherents to think in categorical terms. Which brings me to the question, how do these students categorize Jews? How do they expect Jews to categorize them? I'm pretty sure the minute you mention the word "Jewish" these students picture violence, blood, destruction, IDF and the likes...Whether it be imagine or real, these cognitive constructs are dangerous and they unfortunately lead to further strong negative feelings. And being the human beings we are, sometimes we lose 'control' and let it out, which is exactly what happened at York Univeristy. I'm 100% sure that these students are aware that such remarks can get them in serious trouble, and yet they went ahead and 'let it out', unconsciously. I gave up on thinking about how these cognitive constructs even came about. History is too complciated for me and you gotta look at both sides (which happen to have two completely different stories).
I'm just thankful that these things don't happen at U of T...or at lest not yet. We seem to enjoy a very multireligous atmosphere. Ah, it makes my brain hurts. It's sad, very sad.
It makes want to stop blogging. In fact thats what I'm going to do. I need some fresh air. I just wish that these students would direct their energy toward something useful...
till next time.
I personally wasn't there to witness what happened and none of the youtube videos that I watched show such racists remarks but nonetheless I am not surprised. I am not surprised because prejudice is powerful. While its nothing new and almost everyone nowadays is aware of the conflict between Jews and Arabs, this time the case is different and quite interesting for a Psychology student. This time the remakrs are very overt, direct, and describe what psychologists call "old-fashion racism". Fifty years ago, such negative remarks might have been somewhat tolerated but now, in 2009, these things shouldn't be said and if they are, something serious must be done about them. And by saying that I'm not supporting Zionism. I'm trying to stay as objective as possible. Just looking at the issue as an outsider.
Makes me wonder.
What is it that's motivating these young people? How's this hate fueled? Where's this energy coming from? Who's behind all of this 'brainwashing'? I don't know who the pro-Gaza protesters were but I'm assuming that they were Arabs, Palestinians or Muslims in general. Whoever they are, they must deeply despise Jews. Which makes me wonder...Why??? Why would anyone be willing to put their academic future in jeopardy just to piss off some Jewish students? It really makes me wonder.
Things like this incident make me think that religion promotes prejudice. I'm not trying to blame this on Islam, as any religon put in the hands of the wrong people can turn into a weapon or as the saying goes, "its the artist, not the paint". But I can't deny that religion somewhat forces its adherents to think in categorical terms. Which brings me to the question, how do these students categorize Jews? How do they expect Jews to categorize them? I'm pretty sure the minute you mention the word "Jewish" these students picture violence, blood, destruction, IDF and the likes...Whether it be imagine or real, these cognitive constructs are dangerous and they unfortunately lead to further strong negative feelings. And being the human beings we are, sometimes we lose 'control' and let it out, which is exactly what happened at York Univeristy. I'm 100% sure that these students are aware that such remarks can get them in serious trouble, and yet they went ahead and 'let it out', unconsciously. I gave up on thinking about how these cognitive constructs even came about. History is too complciated for me and you gotta look at both sides (which happen to have two completely different stories).
I'm just thankful that these things don't happen at U of T...or at lest not yet. We seem to enjoy a very multireligous atmosphere. Ah, it makes my brain hurts. It's sad, very sad.
It makes want to stop blogging. In fact thats what I'm going to do. I need some fresh air. I just wish that these students would direct their energy toward something useful...
till next time.
Been a while
It's been a while (2yrs) since I wrote my last (and first) blog. Many things have changed since then...I'm still in university though, 4th yr but not last. I'm probably gonna stay for one more year...still head off toward the unknown and it feels horrible. But at least I'm kinda over med school...I've come to realize that I don't have what it takes to be a doctor...I am a little more honest with myself these days...more realistic about my future goals and my potentials/shortcomings which is a good thing I guess...so long as it doesn't limit me from reaching my realistic goals. By realistic goals I'm refering to grad school. I still hate UTSC a lot. In fact, I'm starting to hate Toronto as a whole but that's something I'll blog about later on as there's more important stuff on my mind.
Mom is leaving in a week. I'm scared to death. Not becaues of responsibility really, although I do think that it's going to be difficult, but because of the situation over there. She's planning to stay there for at least a month if not two. Meaning that she will be gone while I have exams which is a bummer because I have to cook, clean, wake everyone up in the morning, put up with their BS and attitude AND study AND go to work. I don't know how I'm going to handle all of this...It's scary and the last thing I want to do is get Cs and Ds on my trascript!
I really shouldn't be on the computer right now. I have a midterm on Thursday so that's like in a week but I have 12 chapters to cover in 5 days (I don't count Sunday and Monday, these two days are my 'Sabbath'). I'm not even in the mood of blogging. I'm just blogging because I'm bored. I was reading the newspaper in the morning and came across an interesting article about the conflict in the middle east...But I really don't want to discuss it here because this one is supposed to be more, well, personal I guess.
Anyhow, I'll end this blog with a nice quote I came across while I was surfing the net today, it goes like this: "Deprived of meaningful work, men and women lose their reason for existence; they go stark, raving mad"---Fyodor Dostoevsky
Till next time.
Mom is leaving in a week. I'm scared to death. Not becaues of responsibility really, although I do think that it's going to be difficult, but because of the situation over there. She's planning to stay there for at least a month if not two. Meaning that she will be gone while I have exams which is a bummer because I have to cook, clean, wake everyone up in the morning, put up with their BS and attitude AND study AND go to work. I don't know how I'm going to handle all of this...It's scary and the last thing I want to do is get Cs and Ds on my trascript!
I really shouldn't be on the computer right now. I have a midterm on Thursday so that's like in a week but I have 12 chapters to cover in 5 days (I don't count Sunday and Monday, these two days are my 'Sabbath'). I'm not even in the mood of blogging. I'm just blogging because I'm bored. I was reading the newspaper in the morning and came across an interesting article about the conflict in the middle east...But I really don't want to discuss it here because this one is supposed to be more, well, personal I guess.
Anyhow, I'll end this blog with a nice quote I came across while I was surfing the net today, it goes like this: "Deprived of meaningful work, men and women lose their reason for existence; they go stark, raving mad"---Fyodor Dostoevsky
Till next time.
