UGGS

Okay so I only have 15 minutes to write this blog because I have to start studying at 11. I have been slacking off a lot lately :( I was supposed to finish 5 chapters yesterday but it didn't happen. Instead, I only finished 2 chapters. Ugh I hate myself! I'm probably gonna leave it to the last minute. I could so see it happening! But oh well. Anyhow...I hate the TTC. Today, I left home at 8:30am and I got here at 10:30am. It took me 2 hours to get here when I live so close by. It only takes 12mins driving. I want a car!!!! I really want a car.

And on top of that, I was wearing my Lacoste boots...I'm telling you, by the time I got here, my feet were frozen. My socks were frozen. Its so frustrating. I'm gonna have to get myself a pair of UGGS. I just don't have time to go to the mall. I'm so busy with exams etc...plus I heard they're cheaper online. Someone recommended a website called ShoeGhost I've never really shopped from there. I still have to read their return/refund policy. I really like these UGGS though.

My sister has a pair of EMUs, she says that they're pretty comfortable, although I don't see her wearing them anymore. I got them for her last Christmas. Honestly, I don't care about style anymore, not after today anyway. All I want is a pair of comfortable boots that can put it with Toronto's harsh winter. Is that so much to ask for?
I would really appreciate any suggestions!

Alright, time to go to the library!!!

Till next time,

Disappointment

I'm very disappointed in myself. I asked my Prof. for an extension for my thesis and was granted but I didn't do anything. I wish I hadn't. I wish had handed it in when everyone else did. They're done and can focus on their finals. UGh I hate being the loser.

I'm so behind in school and there is NO WAY that I can go to work this weekend. I'm so confused. I'm so fed up. Ugh, I hate myself.

I just want to scream.

MIRACLES!!!!!!!!!!

Honestly

Who was I kidding? I'm just not cut out for it! I want med. school and this time I want to be sure. I don't want anything to stop me. No more distractions!

Ugh! I have tons of things to finish this weekend!

I need miracles!

Till next time

Haul

So here are a few things I grabbed when I went shopping yesterday. I really shouldn't be shopping :( I'm loaded with work. But I feel like shopping takes some of that stress away....Maybe I'm just trying to justify my bad spending habits. But oh well, it's a phase lol (here I am again justifying things). For some reason, I'm in love with gray! Gray and pink, peachy pink! I didn't get anything fancy....Just the basics.
So to start off, I bought these really cute flats from Costa Blanca

They are not very comfortable but I do have to break them in. They stretch.



And here's how they look on me :) They don't look as nice when you wear them with socks but it's kinda chilly outside. Can't wear them alone. But I'm abs. in love with them!



Next I went to Winners and I grabbed a couple of things. First I got this Calvin Klein Coat...It's not special, really. Just simple which is what I wanted. It might be a little too big though. I just wanted something I could wear on a regular basis I guess. But yeah I like it overall. Just not crazy about it lol. I love Winners.



It feels sooooooo soft! It's virgin wool


Then I got this ADORABLE purse also from Winners. I couldn't get my mind off of it. I had to have it. It wasn't that expensive. about $23. But It's so elegant and you can totally spice up an outfit

For example, this is what my outfit today looked like. Just a plain pink tank top and a plain cardigan with my favorite Hamsa necklace which my sister got me from Aldo. Add the bag, and you have a complete outfit! I love it.



Then I went to H&M and my goodness. They had this gigantic sale on gloves and scarves! So I grabbed this really cute gray scarf. I also got another headscarf but it wasn't gray (surprisingly), it was blue. Royal blue, much like my Steve Madden flats. But yeah, I'm very excited that H&M and Zara will soon have an online shopping option! That will save me so much time and effort!



Then I went to Walmart and I got myself a french manicure set for Eid. I haven't tried it yet but it looks legit lol. You can kind of see my books in the background. ha ha. I should be studying :(



And that completes the haul.

I finally got around to picking up my hair straightener from Pullator. I completely forgot about it. But I love it! Its very smooth and it heats up so fast. I already straightened my sister's hair with it and it literally took 15 minutes! I haven't tried it on my hair yet, I've been very busy but I guess sometime this weekend!!



It's also ceramic so it's supposed to wash your hair and straighten it at the same time (or at least so I heard)



Alright, that is it.

Till next time,

Ticking clocks

Hello,

I'm so cold! Its freezing cold where I am. I'm not in a studying mood at all and haven't been for the past 3 weeks. My brain is too busy thinking about other things...may things. I don't know if Med. school is for me...or if its even possible. But one thing I know is that the more I think about it, the more I like it....the more I picture myself in the ER, wearing a whitecoat and running around in the hospital's hallways, much like Meredith in Grey's Anatomy.

Sounds silly, but I'm slowly falling in love with Med. school lol. Wrong timing. And then comes the guy, who is kind of hopeful now....Last time I spoke to him he told me that he doesn't mind me going to school etc...but he personally thinks that people are better off working. Making money. I felt like we think differently when it comes to money. I'm a spender (when it comes to school) and he's an investor. But balance is nice, it would a nice combo. We are supposed to be meeting this Thursday. And I really REALLY have to go shopping sometime on Wednesday or Tuesday. But before I do that, I have to pick up my hair straightener which has been held at the purallator office for God knows how long now. Not nice. I also have to get my TB test pretty soon for the hospital volunteer position thingy. Ugh! I should take a picture of my planner! It literally has something written in every box! It's ridiculous! This semester has been pretty busy. OMG and now that I talk about planners, I forgot that this week is Grad photos week!!! My Goodness! I can't take a picture this week, seriously. I have pimples all over my face. The stress level is unbearable. So yeah, as usual, I need a miracle.


Anyhow, so my thesis is due in a week and I haven't started ANYTHING yet. I think I only have 1 page. I hate my life. There's just so much thinking to do and I'm running out of time. I took next weekend off. I want to spend the weekend in the library but its gonna be Eid, which means that I'll probably have to "do" things with my sisters....and that I'm not looking forward to. Eid doesn't mean much to me anymore, unfortunately. I even stopped going to Eid prayers....the mosque is way too far and I don't have a car. My mom is going this year...I don't think I will, although it would be refreshing.

Speaking of freshness, in an attempt to get my mind off of my thesis, med. school and marriage, I decided to bake. I'll upload some pictures of the cupcakes I baked. I put in some Oreo cookies in them and they turned out phenomenal!!! Meh, something seems to be working.

Till next time,



P.S. the blog's title is inspired by Coldplay's new song Clocks <3

Last night

It was pretty hectic. I was running around between interviews and seminars. but it was worth it. I gained a lot of information and I'm glad they were pretty realistic about things. The more I think about med school the more I want it. The more I think it is the thing for me. It takes a lot.

It's probably one of the most important decisions of my life. I don't know why but I'm starting to think that it is possible...if I work on it of course (which I'm currently not). I don't know why but I feel like I'm familiar with things and at the same time very overwhelmed. It's not easy to explain. But I know that I want to be a doctor....one day. Mom seems less convinced now that I started talking to the guy. She thinks I'm better off doing my graduate studies etc... I don't know. I'm lost.

I like the scene outside of where I'm sitting. There's just a lot ALOT ALOT!!!!

ugh
Till next time

Halal Date

So on Monday I went on my first "halal date". According to me it was Halal anyway....I'm pretty sure there's people out there who would consider it Haram but anyway. It felt pretty awkward at first. Specially that my mother was there and the guy was there alone. I have no idea how he must have felt. But then my mom left us and we sat down and talked about things...he does come across as a pretty simple, down to earth guy which is contrary to what I thought of Iraqi guys...but I guess generalization is bad. so yeah, we talked about a whole bunch of random things. Height is an issue...with me being almost 5 inches taller than him. I don't know how I felt about it. It's like I've always had shorter friends and so walking with someone shorter than me, be it a male or a female is kinda normal since I am pretty darn tall. But to actually think of him as something more than just a male is different. and I'm pretty sure I cant conceptualize it quite yet. It takes time...it takes time for me to first start liking him and then experience the height difference in that context. I tried to explain that to him...I don't know if I sounded like I was pretty enthusiastic about the whole thing...I'm just naturally like that but I think he was under the impression that I liked him. Which I can't comment on right now...I just have no feelings towards him. It's so weird.
I actually never thought I was gonna meet someone this way. I always imagined myself falling in love with someone and then marrying them. Never thought about parents and their involvement but I have to admit that imagination is pretty unrealistic.
So there are many things I wanted to talk about but I'll save them for later since I'm literally loaded with work. I have an interview at St. Mike's tomorrow and then a conference at St. George so I have very little time for studying and my thesis is due in less than 2 weeks. I'm going nuts here.

I need a miracle, as usual.

Till next time