Steve Madden Shoes

This really shouldn't be the title of this blog because I will be talking about other things as well...but I guess the steve madden flats are the highlight of it lol! OMG, I can't wait to get them but at the same I'm a little worried about the shipping. They said it would only take 5-7 days and its been 8 days already :( I know that it's legit because I ordered it off the Steve Madden website. I'm usually very traditional when it comes to buying shoes, either black or brown. probably because it's easy to match everything with these colours and also because my mother is not very adventerous and hates adventerous people *sight* I remember once asking her if I could buy a green pair of flats and she went ballistic on me. She thinks it's a total waste of money. But black is boring, especially when you have 4 black flats. Anyhow, so this time I decided to go blue!!!! Royal blue, Michael Kors blue! I love the colour. I don't have anything to match with it yet, but I guess I can wear it with pretty much any dark-colured top. I need a purse to go with it for sure, but I'm gonna hold that urge for now, I need to pay my tuition first.

On a different note, my mother isnt talking to me...and my dad is kind of tagging along with her. I think I'm slowly turning into this mad, miserable night owl :( It's true. This shift is slowly murdering my social life. All I do is sleep and wake up, go to work, come home sleep, wake up and go to work. I shouldn't have signed up for extra shifts, it's too much :(

I want to apologize to my mom. I want to tell her that I'm trying everything I could in order to be "normal" but it's just not working! I can't be normal if I have to stay up all night at work. I have got to sleep when I come home, and becuase it's VERY extremely difficult to fall asleep during the day when everyone is talking, little sisters playing, phone ringing every 5 mings, I end up spending the entire day trying to fall asleep.

Then there's the whole Manitoba thing. I have no idea why things are happening so fast or even how. My life has always been static for the most part, things don't move that fast....It usually takes my parents a VERY LONG time to come to a final decision. But this time things happened fast. I dont know how I should feel about it. I don't want to move anymore :( I spent my whole life traveling and I've had it now. I never got to form real friendships...always on the go. And now that things have finally settled and I've started to make friends etc., my parents want to move again. Thing is, I'm not a school girl anymore. I'm in univeristy and moving is not easy for a U student. I don't know if med school is possible and I don't want to do my masters there...I'm conrfused and I wish my mother would be there for me, instead of acting chidish as usual.

I understand that the whole family is stressed but this is very important for me and I obviously can't say that I want to stay here alone. It just won't happen. I'm confused.

Here is how the shoes should look like.

Till next time

Been a WHILE!

Soooooo it's been a while since the last time I blogged. A lot has happened since, but I've been very lazy and to be honest, I kind of compteley forgot about the whole blogging thing. It probably has a lot to do with the fact that the internet at my place is pretty crappy.

Anyhow, a qucik summary of what's making news: Moe is home...lots of fun. Dad and Moe are going to Manitoba...in 2 weeks. I dropped out of summer school. I'm staying in school for another year and not one semester as originally anticipated. We're all moving to Manitoba next year. I gained so much weight and finally I went camping for the first time in my life lol.

I will blog more about each and every event.

Till next time.

I'm falling.

I'm starting to slack off again. Not only that but I just don't feel like studying. I need a break. I need to do soemthing fun.

Start over

Start over.

I'm falling behind again...

After I've made a pretty good progress in terms of my studying habits/time-wasting behaviour, but here I am again. Back to slacking off and leaving things to the last minute! I hate the feeling of being out of control, like I cannot control my own body or rather brain. It controls me. It tells me to go home after only spending 1.5 hr in the library, it tells me to watch Grey's Anatomy instead of watching Dr. Inzlicht's lectures, it tells me to just highlight when I know for a fact that I DO NOT learn by highlighting, I have to take my own notes...Basically, my brain is secrewing me up!

Mom is back and thats part of why I don't feel like studying. There's just a lot going on right now. Pictures, gifts, stories, guests etc...wrong timing.

I'm supposed to meet up with someone tomorrow after having done all the readings so we can discuss them in greater details. I'm only done 1 chapter and there's 5 in total! There's NO WAY in hell that I'll be able to finish 4 chapters tonight hahahaa that's actually the joke of the day. It took me 2 days to finish one chapter. But the again I took breaks in between so I was on and off. I went for a nice walk along Bay street though. It was refreshing...didn't buy anything because I'm just not in the mood. I don't even want to get into how I've literally been in a constant flip flop between two hoodies. It's disgusting but I can't help it. Aghhhh I want this to be over.

My exam is on Moday, and I have work on Sat and Sun. so I'm pretty much secrewed up! The thoguht of it makes me have shortness of breath lol. It's not funny

Till next time.

Busy Beeeeee

Its been a while since the last time I made an effort to blog...but what can I do? I'm extremly busy these days...
I already had to exams, can't really tell how I did until I get my marks back but overall I thought both were very long....to a point where my hands were hurting :(

The house is a big mess of course and especially the kitchen! GOODNESS it's basically a dirt hole. I gotta get started on that sometime soon, before mom comes back on Tuesday.

Still haven't decided if I want to go to the airport to pick her up...I guess it all depends on whether I'll be 'in control' by then or not...There's a lot to do, and there's lunch to make, so it's hectic but I'm willing to get started on it as early as 5:00AM!

I have an exam on Monday and I'm really not confident with the material. I might be able to finish the readings etc but I don't know if I'll have enough time to review and go over concepts, and without doing that I cannot write the exam. It's just impossible. It's a waste of time and effort. Ugh I hate this thought, I've done it before and this is exactly what messed up my GPA

Anyhow, I'm off to studying
Till next time...

Baby is not a heart donor anymore

It's sad. I have been following up on Kaylee Wallace's case...I admire her parents a lot. I wonder if I'll ever be able to make such decision in the future. It certainly takes a lot of courage. But the whole thing got me thinking about a recent decision I made. I signed a consent form to donate my heart, kidneys, liver, lungs and bones when I die. People scared me a lot...ethical issues, religious issues etc...Perhaps one of the most common myths about organ donation is the whole thing about doctors rushing you into surgery as soon as they see that donor sticker on your health card or drivers license...Which to be honest, kind of scared me at the beginning. But what happened with Kaylee, 2 months old, proves that doctors will NOT declare you dead until your heart stops beating for 10 minutes. This is why Kaylee was put back on the life support machine when her heart did not stop beating. It makes me feel good about organ donation. I wonder if they will ever be able to transplant the heart. I hope so. Her father, Jason Wallace, is certainly a brave man and a man of values or morals. I wish I could help save a life with my organs when I die.

I have to hit the library now. I have a lot of things to catch up on!

Till next time