So I'm not gonna start this blog by saying "its been a while and a lot has happened since the last time I blogged" because while its true that its been a while, not much has happened and my life has been in this static mode since the last time I blogged. Its been pretty quiet. Nothing interesting. Well other than the fact that mom left to Winnipeg on Monday and isn't coming back till Saturday. I'm sort of used to the responsibility now. Its not the first time.
My tooth is killing me and I really shouldn't be sitting outside enjoying the beautiful weather, listening to music, and blogging. I have tons of readings :( I don't know when I'm ever gonna get around to it. I have work until Monday...which means that I probably won't do much until then. Horrible. All I can think about is April, 29th! I don't wanna go back in because if I do, I'm just gonna end up sleeping :( This is so depressing. I wish I could study at work. Its like 8 hours of nothingness. Nothingness. I hate it but I can't do much...And I'm sure I would feel guilty if I did; I'm not being paid to do my homework. I wanted to put up a picture of something special I just recently got in the mail. I just won't do it today because I'm not in the mood. I have a lot on my mind.
I need to stop watching Ugly Betty. I need to stop eating. I need to stop thinking about Winnipeg and finally I need to start studying. STUDYING! (and baking, it helps).
Till next time,
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Thursday, March 18, 2010
Sold
Or maybe not. All depends on what the inspector says today. But yeah, our house is sold. My god I can't believe I'm actually saying this. Our house is sold :( I really hated it when we first moved. I specially hated the neighborhood. but now that we're leaving, I don't know...8 years. Ah, I'm gonna miss this place. I've had the saddest/happiest/weirdest/ and the list goes on and on, moments of my life in this house. Can't believe we're moving. I don't want to yet think about Toronto. I wanna take it one step at a time. I've taken a few pics of my house...just for memory. I will upload more pics of my bedroom. Oh my dear bedroom :(
So this is our living room. Not the whole thing of course. The most memorable thing that happened here was probably when dad, M and I took pictures lol. and probably other things but I'll never forget that day. I still have the pictures, we all looked so sleepy in them lol. Ugh those day...I think I was in second year university. Been a while. Oh I also remember our family gatherings...when Anna comes over with uncle's family. Lots of fun.
Next is our dinning room, where we eat, but we never actually ate here lol. Only when we had visitors. Man those chairs are sooo painful! Aww I'm gonna miss this place. Hahaha I just remembered something really funny that happened here! when those converts came to do their presentation and the guy starts off by saying "alahuma sadi" I laughed my head off! How immature of me! I was a kid back then. I'm so mean. But it was so funny. mama gave me the dirtiest look ever and right then I knew I was in so much trouble so I ran upstairs and "finished" my laugh....of course M joined me and we literally started ROFL'ing! Good days, good days.
Mom's favorite place! The kitchen! lots and lots of memories...oh where do I begin. This is basically the family's cheese-spot hahah. I remember a lot of sad things that happened here...mostly arguing with mom about going to Med. school and not wanting to get married etc...I also remember us having dinner/lunch together on Sundays. Lots of memories. I love this place.
Anyhow, the weather is BEAUTIFUL outside but I can't enjoy it because I'm working on a paper for C61 :( I didn't bring my laptop today which means that I'm gonna be stuck in the computer lab until I'm done this stupid thing!
Till next time
So this is our living room. Not the whole thing of course. The most memorable thing that happened here was probably when dad, M and I took pictures lol. and probably other things but I'll never forget that day. I still have the pictures, we all looked so sleepy in them lol. Ugh those day...I think I was in second year university. Been a while. Oh I also remember our family gatherings...when Anna comes over with uncle's family. Lots of fun.
Next is our dinning room, where we eat, but we never actually ate here lol. Only when we had visitors. Man those chairs are sooo painful! Aww I'm gonna miss this place. Hahaha I just remembered something really funny that happened here! when those converts came to do their presentation and the guy starts off by saying "alahuma sadi" I laughed my head off! How immature of me! I was a kid back then. I'm so mean. But it was so funny. mama gave me the dirtiest look ever and right then I knew I was in so much trouble so I ran upstairs and "finished" my laugh....of course M joined me and we literally started ROFL'ing! Good days, good days.
Mom's favorite place! The kitchen! lots and lots of memories...oh where do I begin. This is basically the family's cheese-spot hahah. I remember a lot of sad things that happened here...mostly arguing with mom about going to Med. school and not wanting to get married etc...I also remember us having dinner/lunch together on Sundays. Lots of memories. I love this place.
Anyhow, the weather is BEAUTIFUL outside but I can't enjoy it because I'm working on a paper for C61 :( I didn't bring my laptop today which means that I'm gonna be stuck in the computer lab until I'm done this stupid thing!
Till next time
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
Can't make up my mind
I've had two weeks to work on this stupid presentation and I still can't seem to find a topic I like. Well, way to go stupid! presentation is tomorrow at 1:00pm and the article I picked out is so long and boring and I'm thinking of changing it! Ugh, I hate making decisions lol (in other words, I hate life).
I don't even feel like typing anymore :( I'm gonna go now.
Till next time
I don't even feel like typing anymore :( I'm gonna go now.
Till next time
Saturday, March 13, 2010
Simple and practical shopping
So I have sort of started doing my shopping...Mom bought me a bunch of V-neck tees from oldnavy, very practical and simple and they come in pretty much all colours (wearable colours haha is that even a word?) I still have to buy more tees though...its gonna be very hot down there and I'm probably not gonna have enough time for washing/taking care of my clothes lol.
Today, I bought this really cute pair of of slip-ons from Little Burgundy. They're green and match perfectly with my Roots hoodie :) which I probably won't be able to wear there anyway since the weather is so hot.
I have to buy my luggage and bags too...still hunting for good quality/prices.
Till next time,
Today, I bought this really cute pair of of slip-ons from Little Burgundy. They're green and match perfectly with my Roots hoodie :) which I probably won't be able to wear there anyway since the weather is so hot.
I have to buy my luggage and bags too...still hunting for good quality/prices.
Till next time,
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
I wish I was a kid again...
I really do. I hate living life in the fast lane...I can't believe I already reserved my seat. and now there are a million things I have to do before leaving Toronto. I can't believe I'm gonna live on my own for the next 8-10 years of my life. I can't believe I'm leaving my parents, Toronto, my house, my friends and most of all, I can't believe that I'm an adult.....and that its time to act like one.
The thought itself is so scary---especially for someone who is SO dependent on their parents like myself. I'm scared. Very scared.
Yesterday, I had a little talk with my mom about "my future career as a doctor". and mom tried to calculate how old I will be by the time I get my MD and finish my residency...according to her math, I'll be about 30 (that's if everything worked as planned, but unfortunately life as I know it, doesn't always behave...so I'm gonna say about 32). My mom is obviously concerned about whether Ill want/be able to start a family at 32. She thinks its a bit too late. I have to say I somewhat understand where she's coming from. Most of my friends are already thinking about marriage (and they're only 23), some have even taken more "serious" steps and gotten engaged. People are moving on, I guess. I just know that I'm not ready for marriage or even relationships. My mom said that going to medicine (and especially taking the route I'm taking) means dedicating my life to studying/learning and working. I just hope its worth the effort. I realize that chasing my dream of becoming a doctor = to making BIG scarifies....I just hope and pray to God that by the time August rolls around, I hope that I will be 100% positive and confident about my decision. I don't want to be scared....It's just not healthy.
On a more positive note, mom sort of excited about her daughter becoming a doctor :) She even said she would buy my scrubs from Sears....and my lab coat. I thought that was pretty sweet (in fact I'm smiling as I'm typing this). I love my mom. I just want her to believe in me. I know that she knows that I'm scared...and I know that she is too and so is my father but I just wish they could be a bit stronger....I draw my self-confidence/esteem from my parents and it would just help a lot to know that they're proud of me and supportive of my decision. I want to be able to call them and cry, without having to hear "you're on your own".
I'm just so scared.
I have a long day ahead of me and tomorrow is my presentation day. I'm very nervous! I ended up choosing the article on Caffeine and BDNF/TrKinase. I still don't understand all the little details but I get the big picture.
oh and as usual, I'm running out of time.
Miracles!! I need them!
Till next time
P.S. I might take a few pictures today and upload them later on, the weather is AMAZING!
The thought itself is so scary---especially for someone who is SO dependent on their parents like myself. I'm scared. Very scared.
Yesterday, I had a little talk with my mom about "my future career as a doctor". and mom tried to calculate how old I will be by the time I get my MD and finish my residency...according to her math, I'll be about 30 (that's if everything worked as planned, but unfortunately life as I know it, doesn't always behave...so I'm gonna say about 32). My mom is obviously concerned about whether Ill want/be able to start a family at 32. She thinks its a bit too late. I have to say I somewhat understand where she's coming from. Most of my friends are already thinking about marriage (and they're only 23), some have even taken more "serious" steps and gotten engaged. People are moving on, I guess. I just know that I'm not ready for marriage or even relationships. My mom said that going to medicine (and especially taking the route I'm taking) means dedicating my life to studying/learning and working. I just hope its worth the effort. I realize that chasing my dream of becoming a doctor = to making BIG scarifies....I just hope and pray to God that by the time August rolls around, I hope that I will be 100% positive and confident about my decision. I don't want to be scared....It's just not healthy.
On a more positive note, mom sort of excited about her daughter becoming a doctor :) She even said she would buy my scrubs from Sears....and my lab coat. I thought that was pretty sweet (in fact I'm smiling as I'm typing this). I love my mom. I just want her to believe in me. I know that she knows that I'm scared...and I know that she is too and so is my father but I just wish they could be a bit stronger....I draw my self-confidence/esteem from my parents and it would just help a lot to know that they're proud of me and supportive of my decision. I want to be able to call them and cry, without having to hear "you're on your own".
I'm just so scared.
I have a long day ahead of me and tomorrow is my presentation day. I'm very nervous! I ended up choosing the article on Caffeine and BDNF/TrKinase. I still don't understand all the little details but I get the big picture.
oh and as usual, I'm running out of time.
Miracles!! I need them!
Till next time
P.S. I might take a few pictures today and upload them later on, the weather is AMAZING!
Saturday, March 6, 2010
Accepted!
OMG SO I got accepted to MED SCHOOL!
I guess its big. I'm happy but scared.
I want to keep this short and sweet (I just got off work and I'm exhausted)
I need to do more research!
Miracles? Hell yes. Miracles.
I guess its big. I'm happy but scared.
I want to keep this short and sweet (I just got off work and I'm exhausted)
I need to do more research!
Miracles? Hell yes. Miracles.
Friday, March 5, 2010
Waiting...and officially worried.
So I'm still waiting...I was told that I should hear back from them on Thursday, 11:00AM Central. But that didn't happen....My mom thinks its a sign of rejection. I don't know, she could be right. After all, I was very nervous and didn't have a strong answer to their "recent health concerns in the US" question. I gave them a call around 3:00pm Eastern and the lady said that the admission officer was not in the office. The interviewer told me that I should hear back from them regardless of whether I got accepted or not. It's very unprofessional to promise someone that the admission officer would give them a call and then bail on them, especially when it comes to somethign so nerve racking like the decision of getting accepted to med school. It says quite a lot about SJSM.
On a more positive note, I do see a lot of "prospective/accepted" students on their ValueMD forum...which means that I'm not the lone ranger. The classified section is also more active...which means that more and more students are getting accepted and hence looking for means of accommodation. It makes me happy.
Okay so its 12:38 which means its 11:38 central and I still haven't heard back from them. I'm official worried.
On a more positive note, I do see a lot of "prospective/accepted" students on their ValueMD forum...which means that I'm not the lone ranger. The classified section is also more active...which means that more and more students are getting accepted and hence looking for means of accommodation. It makes me happy.
Okay so its 12:38 which means its 11:38 central and I still haven't heard back from them. I'm official worried.
